Jennifer and Lucky's Story
Jennifer began her journey in Gamblers Choice on July 23rd after her husband gave her an ultimatum. She needed to overcome her addiction in order to save her marriage. It was then she realized she needed to quit. “It couldn’t get any worse. I was going to lose my family, my marriage and myself. If I lost that, I knew I would’ve been done. I wouldn’t have wanted to live.”
I look back to July 2005, when my life was a mess, and it was controlled by gambling. Then I met you and Dawn and began my recovery. Seems like yesterday, but clean almost ten years, I realize I could not be where I am today without the help of your organization, those troubled by gambling, and GA as well.
“In looking back I realized there was an empty space in me,” she said. “I was looking for some kind of fulfillment or an escape from responsibilities. I needed something outside of the routine—something to make me feel better about myself.”
“I really didn’t know what to expect,” he said. “But it’s been interesting to look back on my life and see how I got to this point. I still want to gamble, but I’m finding other things to do.”
I know I made the right decision by doing this and I have learned other ways to relieve my stress and now if I feel anxious I’ll go to a meeting or I talk with someone rather than trying to manage everything on my own. I have found other hobbies to fill my time and my feelings of loneliness have decreased significantly. If you ever find yourself in a similar situation, don’t be afraid to ask for help. It’s available and it works.
“Dawn and Lisa and the group members at Gamblers Choice do what no one else had ever done for me,” Emily said. “They listen and understand that gambling, like alcohol abuse and compulsive overeating, are pathologies. That’s why I feel that Gamblers Choice is my family now.”
“When Dave and I walk side by side I feel strengthened by the challenges we’ve faced together,” Karen says. “We don’t have all the answers and there are no guarantees for our children or our grandchildren. All we can do is share our experiences and try to model honesty, openness and a willingness to ask for help if we need it.”
When Curt talks about his past addiction to gambling, he recalls how any anxiety or pain he was suffering at the time would be replaced by a “merciful numbness”. It wasn’t just money he was putting in to the slots; it was a form of medication that allowed him to slip into a numbing state.